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October 8, 2018

I went to see A Star is Born this weekend, and – spoiler alert – Bradley Cooper dies.

As someone frequently mistaken for Bradley (‘s taller, dorkier, way less hot brother), it got me to thinking:

Would anyone sing a song for me, with a 50-piece orchestra, when I’m dead?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fPgs3qq9CGs

I fear that any tributes will be more along the lines of recounting when I threw up on a girl’s va-j-j in high school (which, I’m sad to report, does not tend to seal your rep as a stud). Or when I passed out drunk with Tater Tots in the oven and awoke to a lecture from unreasonably irritated firemen. (My friend Kurt is forever asking me, “What’s the ETA on that tater flambe?”)

I fear that my husband will recall my love for Windex and 409. I fear that my friends will recall how, at 8, I tried on my mother’s pantsuits and bangle bracelets in an unconscious ode to Florence Henderson.

When what I really want is for someone to sob musically into a microphone.

It seems all too apparent that I haven’t given people enough REASON to cry. Clearly, the answer is to spend more time giving of myself.

From now on, I’m gonna help other little boys try on their mother’s crop tops and yoga pants in an unconscious ode to the Real Housewives.

I’m gonna teach new homeowners the joys of toxic cleaning products. (Sure, those chemicals can make you black out, but what’s a little loss of consciousness when your appliances shine like the hubcaps on a PT Cruiser?)

And I’m gonna teach teenage band kids how to get busy without horking on each other’s hot spots.

So, when that tragic day comes, and you hear that I’ve dropped dead from too many Slim Jim’s and Frappucino’s, be sure to book the LA Philharmonic.

‘Cause I want that power ballad.

 

2018-10-08T14:37:44+00:00 October 8th, 2018|Uncategorized|

August 24, 2018

I’m not a racist. Really.

Last spring, my husband and I were at a snotty charity event in Palm Springs. It’s one we probably had no business being at given the ticket price; we were, essentially, two Cinderella’s at the ball, minus the glass slippers and ugly stepsisters. But  I do marketing work for a travel company that donated a cruise to the silent auction, and the owners of the company took us as their guests.

Many of the attendees were lovely and fun, of course. And Sandy and I are generally pretty good at navigating the pretenses of those who weren’t.

But at one juncture, as we divided-and-conquered at the silent auction in a hunt for something fun to buy, I found myself standing next to a short, tuxedo-clad guy in his 50’s. We were both admiring a large piece of modern art.

“We have a Wexler,” the man said, apparently burning with desire to let me know he lived in a mid-century  architectural gem. (Donald Wexler is one of the most celebrated architects of the Modernist movement.). “It would look fabulous above the fireplace in the living room.”

Inwardly, I rolled my eyes.

Oblivious to the fact that I was not exactly hanging on his every word, he plundered forward.“But you know how it is. We’d have to move another piece into the vault.”

When I moved away from St. Louis in the late 1980’s, part of my desire was to escape a segment of the gay population that thrived on pretension. (I don’t know that it’s like that now – maybe it was an 80’s thing, like parachute pants and cocaine.) I absolutely despise people who either pretend to be something they’re not, or want to lord their money over those with less.

And in that moment, something in me just snapped.

I turned to look at him and said, simply, “White people problems.”

His eyes grew big, and he literally began to huff and puff. I thought he might actually have a seizure and I would have to pull his tongue out of his throat. Without a word, he turned on his heel and stomped off.

Now. I am FAR from any kind of racist. My friends are a Benetton ad. I’m a California liberal. And I was actually using the phrase to comment on the sad fact that material overabundance is and has been for centuries primarily the province of Caucasians in America.

But he clearly took it as a racist remark.

And I should probably feel bad about that. The last thing I would EVER want to do is perpetuate discrimination.

But seeing the smirk melt off his face was worth its weight in gold.

I may not have made my point about his classlessness in acting so entitled. But at least we won’t have to worry about being invited to his house.

Because we’d have to bring a hostess gift, and  I’m sure he doesn’t drink Andre.

2018-08-24T07:54:10+00:00 August 24th, 2018|Uncategorized|

August 15, 2018

A CAUTIONARY TALE

I was visiting my sister in St. Louis when her housekeeper arrived.

I’d never met this girl, a friendly, 40ish white woman. (I only mention that the maid is white for the novelty of it all. I live in California.) She plunked her tackle box of cleaning supplies down on the kitchen counter and sighed.

“It’s my last day,” she said. “We’re moving to Tampa.”

“Oh, nice!” I said by way of scintillating conversation. “Florida is pretty.” (I mean, really, what do you say about Florida? “Lucky you! You can bring your semi-automatic to church.”)

“Too bad,” she continued with a sigh, “we won’t have anything when we get there.”

I wasn’t sure how to interpret this. No friends to welcome them? No family within driving distance? Are they on the lam?

“Oh,” I said, “are your relatives afraid to cross the thin red line?”

She looked confused. “I don’t know what that means.” She popped the latch on her tackle box. “We had a mover pick up all our stuff a month ago. And they disappeared.”

Now it was my turn to be confused.

“What?”

“Yeah, they took everything we owned and just made off with it. It’s this scam that movers pull. They take your stuff, then sell it, I guess, and throw out whatever they can’t sell.”

This didn’t seem like the kind of service Mayflower advertised.

“Oh my GOD!” I hollered, much louder than necessary. “So, you have NOTHING??!!”

My helpful recap was probably somewhat unnecessary, but come on, who’s ever heard of such a thing?

“Well, we have one of our cars,” she replied. “So, at least we can get to Florida.”

“It’s like your house burned down!” I said, continuing my fairly impressive display of tactlessness. “Did you try to get hold of the company? Did you call the police?”

At this point, she stopped pulling cleaning solutions out of her box and turned to try to gauge if I was actually brain damaged.

“Ummm, yeah,” she replied. “I guess the company never actually had a real office. People like this just change their phone number. And there’s not much the police can do,” she replied. “By the time you realize your stuff isn’t coming back, it’s all been sold. Plus, it’s crossed state lines.”

“Does your homeowner’s insurance cover the loss?”

“No,” she replied.

I was dumbfounded. “Well, who’s gonna pay to replace your stuff?”

She shrugged with defeat. “We probably should have bought mover’s insurance. But we’ve moved a bunch of times without any problems.”

When everything you own is being trucked 1,200 miles, I said to myself, it might be a good idea to buy insurance. Thoughtfully, this I didn’t say out loud.

“Where did you find these guys?” I asked.

“Craigslist.”

Okay. I realize that we are all of different means. And that often, people have to cut major corners in life. But hiring a mover off Craigslist and NOT getting insurance is a little like being diabetic and eating a box of Ding Dongs every day. You’re just begging the universe to punch you in the face.

“Wow,”I said softly, afraid that at this point she might raise her fists to the heavens and start shrieking, “WHY, GOD, WHY??!!” (Not that I would blame her. But, you know, we just met.)

This was a really stupid scenario, given that it was fairly unavoidable. But I didn’t know her life situation. So I didn’t want to judge her, even if it’s a sport in which I’m David Beckham-like in my virtuosity.

“Okay, here’s what you need to do,” I said, just as my sister walked in, ready for us to leave. “You know those Kickstarter and GoFundMe pages that people set up for heroes or victims of disasters or cancer and stuff? You need to get one of your friends to start one of those.”

“Oh, uh-huh,” she replied, a bit disinterestedly.

“No, really,” I insisted heatedly, nonplussed at her dismissal.

Sure, this was her own damn fault, but there could be entirely justifiable financial circumstances that would make someone take such a gamble. What if one of her kids was handicapped and the family was barely able to put food on the table? What if she cared for an ailing parent, and just cleaned the occasional house when she could fit it in in order to keep a roof over their heads?

“Okay, well, nice to meet you,” she said as Val hustled me out the door.

“What’s with the bum rush?” I said to my sister as we got into her SUV. “Did you know about this whole movers-stealing-all-her-stuff thing?”

My sister is about the kindest, most compassionate person I’ve ever met. She’s supermom to her severely handicapped son. I half-expected her to turn to me, shocked, and burst into tears.

“Oh, yeah,” she replied nonchalantly, as she roared out of her driveway like the Indy 500 starter gun had just gone off.

“Well, you don’t sound very upset about it.”

“Eric,” she said, “this is what she does. I suspect she wasn’t interested in the GoFundMe idea because she’s always getting herself into these kind of problems. Her friends probably wouldn’t do it.” She took the corner at 60 miles an hour on two wheels. “Some people have to learn the hard way.”

It reminds me of a term my friend Steve once coined for a mutual friend of ours who created all kinds of problems for herself: “She’s a shit vortex”.

And this, my friends, is the moral of the story. If you’re gonna hire a mover with a burner phone and not get insurance, try not to be a shit vortex.

2018-08-15T08:47:20+00:00 August 15th, 2018|Uncategorized|

July 30,2018

I think I might be too busy.

Oh, don’t get all judgy on me, I’m not trying to impress you. It’s not like I’m living some glamorous Kardashian-inspired (a phrase I never thought I would utter) life where the excitement is nonstop.

It’s not like I need a break from invitations to yachts on the French Riviera and ryads in Marrakech. (But if any of you have a plus one, I’m available.)

I think I’m just working too much. And here’s how I know:

In the last month, I’ve gone to the airport and forgotten my phone.

Twice.

I mean, the thing is virtually glued to my thigh like a tumor, so this is not normal behavior. The second time it happened, Sandy sighed and said, “I guess we’d better start saving for the Home.”

Other warning signs:

  • My friends have just about given up inviting me to things, because either: a) I’m working; or b) I’m out of town. (There is a possible “c” which involves my inability to stop bitching about being so busy, but really, I’m sure it’s a or b.)
  • I’m starting to forget what my husband looks like. We’re used to only seeing each other about 200-250 days a year because he travels for work, but this year we’ve been in different cities so often that I’m beginning to wonder if he was ever real or just a big brown mirage. (Yes, he’s Hispanic. Don’t write me letters. I get a pass.)
  • I cannot function, day to day, without a list. Part of this is totally legitimate – I have many jobs going simultaneously – but when I find myself writing things down like, “Trim fingernails” (the reminder is, pardon the expression, right at my fingertips) or “Do the elliptical”, which sits in a corner of my office and which I glance at perhaps 20 times a day, maybe it’s time for a vacation.

It is somewhat reassuring to know that some people are even worse. My friend Jason is similarly frantic all the time, and he got out of his car at a parking lot at Burbank airport (on his way to Vegas for a weekend) and LEFT HIS CAR RUNNING. He returned to find it still running – albeit with 15 less gallons of gas – two and a half days later.

But still.

Here’s the problem: like most authors, I’m not making a living at books alone. I still do my advertising and marketing work (which is a good 50 hours a week). AND I write future books. AND I promote the new book that’s out (with things like interviews, articles for magazines, this blog, social media, blah blah).

I think the answer is some sympathetic reader with more money than sense bequeathing me a few million dollars.

Or maybe I can get Sarah McLachlan to do one of those ASPCA-type ads for me, with an 800 number to call to donate.

Oooh! Or maybe some caring friend could do a GoFundMe campaign on my behalf.

I mean, sure, I wasn’t run over by a hit and run driver. I didn’t save ten strangers from a burning building.

But it would save YOU from having to read posts like this.

Consider it a public service.

2018-07-30T06:36:32+00:00 July 30th, 2018|Uncategorized|

July 22, 2018

One of the best things about writing memoirs is getting letters from people who say, “My God, your mother Pledged the paneling every week? So did mine!”

Or, “Hey, I threw up on a girl’s vagina, too.”

The kinship of shared experiences is a pretty powerful thing. And when readers see themselves in my books, I feel like I’ve accomplished something more than just the narcissism of writing about myself (as lustrously fulfilling as that is). If, in working out my personal issues on the printed page I can help somebody else work through theirs, then I’ve done my job.

I’m like a literary therapist. But with no credentials or Kleenex.

Many friends have asked me over the years if I wanted to put photos of myself in my books, to which I always respond, “Are you kidding?” I’ve read memoirs where the author inserts charming photos of his life, and it always takes me out of the book. Suddenly, it’s his story, and I’m just outside looking in.

I want my books to be your story.

Sure, you might not have played Trying to Get the Feeling on the trumpet right before having sex with a girl. You might not have performed On a Clear Day as a lounge number (with jazz hands) in front of your college theatre professor. You might not have found yourself on a runaway freight train to the altar. You might not have dressed in drag to win over your boss at an ad agency (and then done it again).

But you probably felt the same way – that panic at being different, that fear that your life was going in a direction not on any “acceptable” map, that desperate desire to be seen, but terror at actually taking the leap to make it happen.

This is why I like writing – and reading – memoirs. There’s something about knowing someone’s journey was real that makes the similar experiences that much more profound.

And seriously, some of the stupid things that happen in life? You can’t make this shit up.

2018-07-22T11:18:32+00:00 July 22nd, 2018|Uncategorized|